I'm not sure how it happens, these ever accelerating trips around the sun.

But here we are, adding one more candle to the birthday spiral today. 


Eleven years since you were born into our waiting arms as the sun rose, the fire crackled, and the first snow began to softly fall.

Eleven years of your spirit, your heart, and your smile lighting up our home and our hearts. Eleven years of your determination, wonder, compassion, and joy woven into our days.

How honored and grateful (and oh so lucky!) I am to be the one that you call mama. I can't imagine life without you by my side.

Happy birthday, Lula Blue. You are love, stardust, and magic come to life. 

And I love you so.





8 thoughts on “Eleven

  1. Mathilde says:

    Yes, they move my soul, too. My life is so stressful, that I feel I keep missing out on my daughter. She’s 4 and a half, it almost feels like she a grown up girl already, and the past two years have been so manic that I’ve barely seen her properly. How do you cope with stress, and life’s sheer speed, and make the space to enjoy your children like this, while managing everything that you do? Any of your magical tips on dealing with domestic violence, subsequent break-up, change of country, work and having to give in and take my daughter to school… Please go ahead! Reading your blog is healing for me, it’s my go-to when I lose sight of the essentials. It should be free on the NHS, if it weren’t free anyway!

  2. Gloria Goodwill-Aelick says:

    Happy birthday to your sweet girl. As always thank you for sharing so freely of your life, your children and especially your love 🙂

    Can I ask for the pattern for that sweet little knit bonnet Lupine is wearing in the photo where she is in the window? My littlest just turned 3 and the experience of having 2 elder kiddos has taught me to cherish this one all the more. Your words always remind me and bring that home. And that hat would be precious on her. I love your kids styles.

  3. Rachel Wolf says:

    Hi Gloria! Thank you for your sweet words. Im terrible about posting my finished knits on Ravelry, but this one I actually shared. You can find a link to the pattern here. It was a a fun and easy knit, inspired by one worn by one of Lupines friends. All the best, Rachel

  4. Rachel Wolf says:

    Oh, mama. Thats a lot to carry. I wish I had some good resources for you regarding domestic violence and the subsequent stresses that follow. I hope you are getting good care for a therapist. If not please do your best to carve out a sliver of time for it. It can make a profound difference in healing the layers of hurt that you carry. As for your little one, know that however busy life is, you are together and most days I expect you find a moment to look into her eyes and tell her that you love her. Start there. It matters.

    Hugs from here,

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